I don’t know how I am feeling…it is such a difficult decision! I think he loves me, and I love him! Why is this so hard?
We have spent a great time in the valley of the Ebro. This place is amazing... I had never seen a similar landscape. I love the white hills and the sunny days. But happy moments have disappeared, these moments were like a dream, it was an unforgettable adventure.
Now, I am awake. I am writing and trying to think what to do. He says I have to be sure, but I don’t really know what the right decision is. I feel whatever I do, I will regret... But I won’t be alone, he will be with me, he will take care of me. He won’t leave me. He wants me to do what feels better...how can I know what it is? I know what he wants, but maybe I don’t want the same...It has to be my decision.
Dear diary, I hope to tell you good news next time. I hope everything is all right.
You catch the girl's desperation and unrealistic hopes really well in this diary entry. She is reassuring herself by trying to state something that is very unsure, as if it is a solid fact: "He won’t leave me."
ReplyDeleteYes, I think she desperately wants he does not leave her...she wants to think that will not happen, as if it is impossible...
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