Frustration

This was one of those days; A typical, rainy getting-on-everyone’s-nerves-day. The day seemed unexplainably longer than its usual 24 hours. The sky was near pitch black and the rain kept pouring down in big, fat drops. What a mood killer, she thought followed by a loud sigh which made the person next to her stare in her direction… As if she did not notice. People were so indiscrete and that fact too got even more on her already challenged nerves.

She was on her way to someplace nice. She could not care less where that place would be. She decided long ago not to care about anything anymore. Already her life had been full of disappointing memories; Adolescence frustrating, teenage years confusing and childhood torn apart. She had never wished for much. Just a little bit of happiness, a little love.. Some stability. Did anyone answer her prayers? No. She was so angry with the way her existence had turned out that she had become absolutely numb. Numb to everything. Numbness.. What a weird concept. She had spent many nights dissecting this word, trying to understand it, trying to find its core, getting just the slightest grasp of what the true meaning was.

She was still searching.